When did you realize that your childhood was not normal?

slight bit of backstory: my adoptive mom (gay moms) was making about 200k a year in and around 2008. i didn't know this and never would've guessed because my brother and i were told by our bio mom when our moms divorced that we were very very poor. i mean i grew up constantly guilted over medical bills, phone bills, any and all costs- you name it.

i didn't question it until 2020 she kept flying to london bc she was gonna buy property to start an artist residency. don't remember why it fell thru exactly, something about sculptures on the property that were stipulated not to be removed and my mom didn't like that, but her and her (now ex) wife at the time got into an argument abt where tf my bio mom had came up w millions to buy massive acreage in london??? was kinda brushed aside in the end and i moved out of state a few months later.

its not drugs she doesn't even drink. she was always an odd and abusive woman. diagnosed NPD, won't accept she's the problem bc she's semi well known and charismatic. i always knew my childhood wasn't normal but i sure as hell didn't realize the extent of it until this past december

Hello, I have a question about astral projection. I started to get interested in this a little while after my mum passed in april. I thought I may be able to see her and speak with her if I managed to achieve astral projection. Since this interest, every time i sleep on my back I go into sleep paralysis. However, I cant progress into astral projection because it is very scary for me as I feel like I'm suffocating when this happens. I panic and force myself to wake up. This only ever happened about once a year before this. It sometimes lasts a long time. This has happened about 3 times per week since my mum died, as mentioned on a previous post. I no longer try to go into it anymore(due to the suffocating feeling), but it still happens. I read that sleep paralysis is the pathway to astral projection. Why has this started to happen so frequently since simply taking an interest in it? Is this connected to the afterlife? I am concerned about it as I now cannot seem to stop this happening. Could it be my mum trying to communicate? Im asking due to more knowledge around this in this group.

anywho i was visiting lifelong friends in another state in dec and she straight up said "why did your family always cosplay as poor when *mom* was making over 200k during a depression?" i was like girl wdym???? long story short i asked my adoptive mom and my ex step mom about it and apparently everyone wants to know where tf she's hiding money and why she acts like she hoards it.

she was raised by once wealthy (cancer sucks!) parents so it isn't something bred into her thru her childhood. she just likes to embezzle and extort her ex wives for money and then hides it away. 156k over 3 years extorted , but this is NOTHING and i mean NOTHING compared to everything else over the years, but the 156k was easy to prove.